Wednesday, 7 September 2016

A Mother's Confession

On starting my blog I always wanted it to be a place for me to vent, to get down my thoughts and experiences as a new mum. Over time my blog has evolved and I love how varied and broad the topics are now. I got into a really good flow of posting 2-3 posts every week, but lately you may have noticed the lack of posts, this comes from a lack of motivation, which stems from what I'm currently dealing with in my personal life. I don't even know if this is something I should be 'broadcasting' on my blog, but at the same time I want this to be a place where I can do just that, in hopes that someone somewhere will be able to relate, and I'll find the support I need to help me get through it...

When I was growing up I always thought about the future and had a vision of what my life would be. In those daydreams I never thought I'd get to this point, I guess I had rose tinted glasses on of how simple and easy life would be. Being in the situation I'm now facing is far from what I wanted, but one of my mottos is do what makes you happy, and I've been unhappy now for far too long. As much as I'm a resilient person, it starts to take its toll and I can see myself becoming a shadow of my true self...

What I'm trying to say is that, I've been unhappy in a relationship for way too long. There may be parents who feel the same and will do everything in their power to keep their family together, they may get engaged, have more children in hopes that it will improve the turbulent relationship but potentially waste 25 years of their life being miserable with the wrong person and end up bitter, jaded and full of regret. And that's not how I envision my life to be either.

Maybe I'm selfish for blaming my unhappiness on someone else, maybe I'm a bad mother for wanting to split with my child's father, but in my own life experience and observations, it's much better to lead by example, showing to myself but also my son that you don't have to stay in a bad and love-less relationship; you can change your situation, you're the creator of your life and can improve your circumstances. Sometimes life doesn't work out the way you envisioned, or to society's standards, but you have to find your own happiness, and if that means being alone, leaving someone you're just not compatible with and discovering what you really want from life, than that's okay. Be brave. Discover your passions and attract positivity.

I do feel like a hypocrite because I'm usually a huge advocate of inner happiness... loving yourself and not letting it others control your emotional wellbeing, but when every day is a battle, creating your own happiness becomes a real chore rather than an attitude.

If you've got to this point still thinking wtf is she on about, I'm going through a break up. An emotionally challenging time of my life that's been the consequence of months of unhappiness, and that's why my blog has stalled. It is still early days and I don't want to rush anything. I want to create a stable and positive environment for my son and as adults we will be courteous and amicable to each other in hopes to share the parent responsibility as equally as possible. I hope to soon find a new lease of life, cleanse my aura and get back to business again. But for now I can't commit to amazing blog content that I'm proud of when my head is full of fog.

So that's my confession I guess, now that it's written down I can start to process it, but also a confession to the world (okay my friends, family and readers) that this is my situation, this is the hand I've been dealt and I'm going to do my best to make the most of it. I was hoping by writing it down it would make me feel better, and it absolutely has. So here's to being brave, breaking the mould and shaping myself into a strong, independent woman that destiny's child would be proud of. For now, I don't really know what else to say except, please single parent club, welcome me with open arms and a gin and tonic. 

P.S this is no way a dig at the person in question, it's just my honest account and a confession of how I'm feeling and what I'm going through. My blog is a place for me to share my lifestyle and sometimes it's not as perfect and edited as I make it to be, and that's why I want to share it, I want to be honest and real..

Sunday, 28 August 2016

First Impressions: Tarte Rainforest of the sea Concealer

I can't even remember how i heard of Tarte Cosmetics, but they've always been a must try on my list as they're a cruelty free brand. I watched them a few times on QVC and was really blown away by their ethics and also they ingredients they use in all their products. As someone who's becoming more conscious and ethically aware of the products i use and the companies i support, this one really stuck out in my mind, the founder is so passionate about using natural ingredients that are actually good for the skin, which means wearing this makeup will actually benefit you by giving it a protective layer of good stuff that hydrates. The more and more i saw on social media, QVC, youtube etc i fell in love with it all. So when it came to choosing a product that i wanted to try, well it took weeks for me to decide.

I had another look on QVC UK and decided that the rainforest concealer was for me. I don't usually wear a liquid foundation as i've always found them too heaver and have also gone off BB creams because they feel too thick for me. Especially during the summer when i'm more tanned, if it's not that time of month when volcanoes erupt on my face, then i feel i can get away with the standard eyebrow, lash and cheek combo. But on those days wear i fancy making an effort and want to cover blemishes, i really wanted to invest in a product that suits me and is in line with my ethics. Also listening to Tarte brand reps explaining that because Tarte use natural ingredients that nourish the skin, it's actually better to wear it than not, as it acts as a defence from the harsh elements. This was like a light bulb moment as i thought 'ahh that makes so much sense', especially as this concealer is water based; i have super dry skin so have a layer of extra moisture can only be a good thing right?!
They don't have a huge range of colours (which is probably best for someone like me who's indecisive), but i think it's because the colours are quite adaptable, it was clear from the chart that 'tan' would be my best match.

I was so excited when it arrived and couldn't wait to get my hands on it, the rainforest range has gorgeous ombre packaging.

like this pic on my instagram account

I paid £29.80 for the concealer, brush and P&P which is amazing value! The brush really is just as important as the products, complimenting the concealer in every way. I spend ages buffing it in because the brush feels so good (i can't be the only one who does that?!).

Before i go on about how it looks and feels, there's just a couple of things i wasn't hugely loving on first impressions which was the smell: to me it smells quite 'chemical-y' even though i know it's far from that, whatever it is i'm not that keen. Also i've got the smallest wrinkles under my eyes which are more noticeable with the concealer on, but i'm sure if i wore a primer under my eyes the concealer would set a lot better and not crease. Lastly, because i have a dry forehead, it's really important that it's hydrated and nourished with plenty of serum beforehand so that the concealer doesn't go patchy.

Right, now down to business.

Excuse the crap quality of my phone camera!

The left hand side is with no make-up, just moisturised and a light layer of serum. The middle is after i've applied concealer from the dropper on the areas i want. Then on the right is after i've buffed it all in. I also went around my eyebrows and forehead but didn't completely cover every inch as i prefer a natural look. It matches my skin pretty perfectly, i think!

As you can see it matte-ifies the skin but at the same time it leaves the skin dewy, i think that's the power of it being water based. It's a really nice balance and for a concealer is really lightweight. I never thought i'd like a concealer or liquid foundation, being a mineral powder girl, but i'm in love with this. With the matching brush too, it's pretty foolproof. If i didn't touch my face so much it would probably last all day too.

I finished my day to day look with a quick brow, mascara and blush. Just look at the glow! No highlighter needed! I still don't wear this every day simply because i'm just too lazy and am not a morning person!

So, what do you think? I always find it so difficult choosing this type of product, so i hope you found this a helpful review if you've been eyeing up the Tarte range. Would love to know your thoughts in the comments!

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Tuesday, 16 August 2016

Oleo Skincare*

Before we moved home along with it my internet and my ability to keep up with the blog, i was sent a pair of glorious products courtesy of Oleo Bodycare and have quite simply fallen in love with them along with the brand itself.

Oleo Skin and Bodycare

Let me tell you why! First of all, the brand is based in Dorset, first tick as i really like to support small local businesses, second of all all the products are hand-made by a qualified aromatherapist. If you read my recent post on creating a spa at home, you know how much i value aromatherapy in the home, so for it to be infused in body care is just a dream! And just look at their brand belief: 

'We firmly believe that our formulations must benefit mind, body and wellbeing, using high quality essential oils, herbs, vegetable oils and extracts.'
Not to mention that their ingredients are free from; harmful parabens, synthetic fragrances and colours, SLS and mineral oils. Oh and they're cruelty free too! I'm always chuffed to hear from brands that share the same values as me and are in line with my ethics, just perfect!

Anyway, on to the good stuff. I was lucky enough to chose the products i wanted to try out from their website, and it's safe to say i was absolutely spoilt for choice. They've got something for hair, body, feet and hands, bath, shower and massage. Honestly it took me a good while to decide which two i had to go for and i know i'll definitely be purchasing more very soon, as i'd love to try their face products!

What i really loved about both the shower gel and the body lotion is the scents are really gorgeous, they're not overpowering in any way but it's enough to have the desired effect.

Having worked at Lush for years and thinking that lather could only be created using SLS (so stupid right?!) i was really surprised and impressed with the lather of the shower gel, it's a really soft gentle lather which is quite addictive to use! Saying that you only need a small nut sized amount to wash from top to toe.

Oleo Shower Gel

As for the lotion, it's the perfect texture and consistency, it doesn't leave the skin sticky. A few pumps will reach my whole body and for me with drier skin it moisturises all day, so i don't get that horrible tight feeling later on. Having been through many, many, many many moisturizers and body lotions from birth because of my dry skin i know a thing or two about body care and this ticks all the boxes. I prefer a sweeter smelling body lotion but i can't complain as it contains frankincense which has amazing benefits on the skin, mind and body, take a look at their blog post to find out more about frankincense.

Oleo Body Lotion

I've still got about a third of each product to use which is really good as i've been using them pretty much every day. I can't wait to finish these and try out some more from the range.

Oh and if you're tempted they currently have 20% off body lotions during August!

Do you use natural and cruelty free skincare? I'd love to discover more brands like this so please let me know of any in the comments!

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